Hey guys! So, you may, or may not, know you I am. I have been with this game for a while, and I love every single aspect of it. From the mechanics, to the player base, there is absolutely nothing about Mage Wars I don't like (except the Battle Fury thing, but hey! it's not that bad). So, when I perform less than average, or I don't treat people, especially the people I love and care about, with enough respect, It really gets to me. Which brings me to what I wanted to talk about with you all today.
Yesterday I posted in a thread entitled: New Initiative rules and you. The topic started as a discussion on a subtle but important change to the Mage Wars core rulebook. This prompted another discussion about declaring your school as a wizard, which was still incredibly interesting. I did not make it seem so with my post. Here is a link for those of you who want to read these terribly unbecoming words:
http://forum.arcanewonders.com/index.php?topic=13333.msg26749#msg26749. And it's all by me. I singlehandedly ruined what I love most by involving outside anger to discussion that was not even mine to begin with. I was angry (not with you folks, with a personal problem), and I let loose hurtful words to people I really do love and care deeply about. I may not know your real names, or know what you do for a living, but I do know your love for the game, and it's a love I can definitely respect, which is exactly what I didn't do in that thread.
So I want to apologize to all of you for the shame that I brought upon myself with those words. I did act with respect, or kindness, and for that I apologize. To all of you who I offended, Baron Zaltor, Kharhaz, aquestrion, sIKE, ringkichard, AylinisAwesome, as well as Deckbuilder. You all have had nothing but good things to say in the past, and I truly do apologize for my words. My mom once told me that they were the only real thing a person had, so for me to give you such a rotten gift is in no way respectful. I consider you all my peers, my equals, my friends. And for me to sink that low just rerail a discussion is just plain wrong. There are no two ways about it. There is one user that I did not mention in the previous list, and that guy, or gal, is Zuberi. My reply to your response was not only uncalled for, it was completely lacking in respect. I hate when people talk to me like I did to you, so for me to do that same thing is intolerable, and I sincerely apologize. You all deserve much more than what I had to offer with those responses.
So, where can I go from here? I do not deserve forgiveness at all for what I have said, and I completely respect those of you who decide that I am not worth the time of day. I am by no means a perfect soul, nor do I want to be. But I do want to show you all that I do care about you, and about this game. I am young, and very prone to mistakes, but I will try my hardest in the future to disrespect any of you in the slightest.
I hope you can forgive me for my anger, and I can only hope to meet, talk with, and even play some Mage Wars with, in the Future.
Here's to you
"The Dude"
